Tuesday, February 2, 2016

2016 a year of change

Entering into 2016, many things have changed in my life.

The most interesting change is how after 1 year and a half the ache I have for my oldest son, who is growing into a fine man, off in Arizona at college.

It marks time indelibly ... to have your children grow up, and out.   As Ray turns 15 on Friday, and goes to take his driving test you really realize, that from the vaginal delivery through growing up, and out ... "that train has left the station"   and it won't be returning

I had turned to the food industry to discover my inner self drive and demons aren't nearly as fierce as the capitalistic drive of others clawing like crabs in a crab pot over top of each other to grab with both hands for the stash.   Sickening, in a depraved industry full of good people, I had to retreat and rethink just what is this drive about?   What glory is there in fooling the masses into helping eat healthy food themselves, when I myself am the one who needs the outcome of a nutritious regimen.

Exercised my way through 31 days of January, to rest on Feb 1st and 2nd.   Didn't really feel the "high" from it, but the body let me know in several ways and areas that it was sorely out of shape, and in need of rest.  It is true that good habits can be learned in 21 days, I felt a need to go out and do something, so to the garage for some rowing and elliptical machine.

2016 will bring changes, I'm figuring out my place in the world ... it was a long time to get to the place where you know, and you stop worrying about dashing your own dreams, because you already are living them.

Dream bigger?   We'll see ... being happy where I am: priceless.