Saturday, August 19, 2023

Escaping Life in a Bubble

 I've existed in a bubble that I wholly created. It wasn't transient, like soap bubbles blow out of a bubble ring from a bottle.    This bubble was made of thicker material similar to an exercise ball.
Tough enough that inside of it feels like being trapped in a swimming pool, underwater, with a cover on the pool holding you under.  Gasping for breath, but sucking in water you're unable to claw through and save yourself.  That kind of material surrounds me.

Is it the intellectual naivety, the propoganda ... the wisdom of things I can Google faster than you?

We are trapped by information.  Surrounded by it.   Worse, it can interrupt us.   Yes, our computer like minds, meant to multi-task like an operating system are now set so that almost anything we sign up for, join, shop at or date can cause an interrupt of whatever thread of execution we're on ... and gain our immediate attention via our cell phones.    The information runs us.

Translate this into relationships and humans are doomed.    The stereotypical gender roles have been redefined and mashed into many re-interpretations of self.   Woman in masculine frame, Man in feminine frame and these are just our tendencies and likes, when it comes to our actual love partners well, I can't really put a number on the permuations nor understand LBGTQRSTUVWXYZ ... we'll run out of alphabet trying to un-bubble the confusion over the sexes.   It's literally turned into war.

Joe Jackson famously sang, in "Real Men"  lyrics '... if there's war between the sexes then there'll be no people left'.  I don't know, I see families, I see the young ones popping out, the husbands with their beards and wives and kids ... and it seems procreation is alive.   I think it's the bubble that ensues, that thick layer of information, that familiarity ... the knowing of all of your significant other's glitches, faults, gnits, nags, dirty laundry and some secrets that kills it.   It takes these people that start out with good intention and eventually over the course of a relationship just brings it to its knees.

There you pray, begging for a different relationship paradigm.   You have fights about it, make up, try new things and still ... the lifeblood has been sucked dry.  And you go on.  And you age.  And the world spins some more revolutions.   The world with us sucked to the edge of it by gravity, the biggest spinning bubble, our lives a microcosm of a spinning bubble.

Inside of here we feel safe, but we're insulated from everything.   So much insulation, we feel nothing.

Facts are meaningless, lies pointless and the information, the news, events and things occuring are transient.  Blips.  Doesn't matter if its the biggest event of your life, a SuperBowl, a school shooting they are blips.  Nothing stays.  Photos, digital, gone.  Music, services, gone when you stop paying.

You work, for exceedingly high priced and expensive shit (house, car, groceries) and get no reward or pleasure, you just bail and bail and bail the debt like water in a sinking boat.  Toys don't matter, Amazon shit doesn't matter, candy, roses, fine meals ... all meaningless.   Your time to fund this inglorious lifestyle is wasted.  Indentured servant to the banks and government you are a wage slave.

Escaping this bubble?    You get a knife, cut out an escape hatch and let air in so you can breathe, first.
Next you have to go against every norm that keeps you in a rut of information overload and debt, and live like a recluse. Freeballing and spitballing in the now, the present, every day.  I mean, don't avoid other people entirely, they are fun to learn from just don't allow the toxicity of some of the people seep in and start manufacturing another layer of bubble material.

People's opinions and coercive nature tend to sway our thoughts too easily, as does the news, any Internet article, any YouTube video ... they are all throwing information at a wall to see what sticks.
And it's gumming up your head.   The key is to take Life with a grain of salt (I know very cliche) but it is true, you needn't worry that you are needing any of this information.

Live your life, approach people with care and listen to your intuition.  Wake yourself up and out of the bubble.