Monday, August 15, 2022

An Actress's final Act

Imagine our life as an etch-a-sketch,
how simple it would be to erase
and start over
just shake that shit off our mental screen

What a splendor it would be for the tormented
Anne Heche to shake away those images
of the perversions of her father on her

How him contracting  AIDS spoke to his inner demons
how her curiosity and love (yes love)
of him, may have pushed her into Ellen's arms for a while

How her brother found a tree,
to wrap his car around,
perhaps the shame too great to bear.

How her crazy, couldn't stop with drugs,
or alcohol, or sex ... or work (she had over 40 films to her credit)
nor would her book "Call me Crazy" spell relief.

Blame the fentynal laced coke,
blame the paparazzi,
blame the father, swine
Mostly the father, that fucker.

A life so smothered with shame, guilt, hate, confusion
she raced her Mini-Cooper full speed to nowhere,
into a house,
unable to shake the etch-a-sketch board clean

Did she think, smoldering in her car
'Oh, great I survived' this as a dreamscape
Only to have the fire department, put out the structure fire
as she smoldered and time ticked on ...
did she hope this is it, or just another bad dream

As they took her cloaked, covered and charred body
to the Ambulance
she sat up, like a zombie apocolypse 
showing "life" , one last time as if to say "I'm free!"


The tortured life of a kamikaze pilot.   R.I.P.  Anne Heche

Thursday, July 7, 2022

Life and death

I read a quote from Anthony Bourdain, that had me wanting to try a new drink.

I thought about my fondness of teaching and helping others that sprang out of a T.A. job I had in college.

I thought,  'what is life about?'

It dawned on me, life is a reflection;   of that which we imbue on each other.

Nothing more.

If we can learn anything before we leave this planet it should be this:
We were made to relate. To share, to lift up.

love.  It is the force behind each and every imbuement.


"But I think the Negroni is the perfect cocktail because it is three liquors that I don’t particularly like. I don’t like Campari, and I don’t like sweet vermouth and I don’t particularly love gin. But you put them together with that little bit of orange rind in a perfect setting… It’s just: It sets you up for dinner, in a way it makes you hungry, sands the edges off the afternoon. In an after dinner, it’s settling. It is both aperitif and digestive. It’s a rare drink that can do that." ~ Anthony Bourdain